Today is the 20th February 2008 . Pardon my emotion, but i'm on the verge of breaking down . Took off work today and went to return Adeline's uniform at Dhoby Ghaut, alone, yeap, 'cause Nathan had to work for first three days at the factory, can't afford him to skip a day and lose the job, so i went myself, which was so okay . So Adeline and Nathan, don't worry alright ? =) . Then went to library and borrowed two books, return fines and came home .

I sent an SMS to you in the morning, 9.42am and you only replied a minute ago - 5hours later . Went Dhoby today, by pass Cathay, by pass my memory, and by pass the image of you in my mind once again . Tell me . . . what can i possibly do, to bring you back ? The indescribable feeling inside me, just wouldn't go away, no matter how much i tried to be happy, it sticks like a base, to my heart of emotions . I feel nothing but disappointment, my happy feelings are hidden, and my sad ones are seen, often together with tears, when ever i think of you, again . One after another, but you seem to be so different from the rest . You smoke, but i care no more, you drink, i do too, you once said - you only wanna be in love like any other, and why it's so hard for you . Like Rainie said, how much would you score me compared to your dream girl ? I'm standing here, waiting for you to come, tried to tell you how i feel, and tried to catch any chance to see you once again, and you ?

Just took medicine, feeling drowsy, hands' shivering again . Whatever .

This song made me think of you, because it applies to me, i just want you . . . really . It's not the song, it's what it says .

Leona Lewis - Bleeding love .

Closed off from love

I didnt need the pain,

Once or twice was enough

And it was all in vain

Time starts to pass before you knowit you're frozen.

(ooh)

But something happened for the very first time with you,

My heart melted to the ground, Found something true,

and everyones looking round thinking I'm going crazy.

(ooh)

But i don't care what they say, I'm in love with you,

They tried to pull me away,

But they don't know the truth,

My hearts crippled by the vein that i keep on closing,

You cut me open and i,

Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

I Keep Bleeding,I Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

You Cut Me Open.

(ooh)

Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud,

Their peircing sounds fill my ears,try to fill me with doubt,

Yet i know that the goal is to keep me from falling,

(ooh)

But nothings greater than the risk that comes with your embrace,

And in this world of loneliness, I see your face

Yet Everyone around me thinks that I'm going crazy,

maybe, maybe...

But I Don't Care What They Say I'm In Love With You,

They Tried To Pull Me Away But They Don't Know The Truth,

My Hearts Crippled By The Vein That I Keep On Closing,

You Cut Me Open And I,

Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

I Keep Bleeding I Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

you Cut Me Open.

And its draining all of me,

Though they find it hard to believe,

Ill be wearing these scars for everyone to see

Well i don't care what they say im in love with you,

They tried to pull me away but they don't know the truth,

My hearts crippled by the vein that i keep on closing,

You cut me open and i,

Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

I Keep Bleeding I Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

Oh you Cut Me Open and i,

Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

I Keep Bleeding I Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

Keep Bleeding, Keep Keep Bleeding Love,

Oh You cut me open and i,

Keep bleeding Keep Keep Bleeding Love...(ooh)